Alone again ... naturally

Another month, another man, another disappointment. Why is it always me? "When it's over - that's the time I fall in love again" and relationships that haven't even started end. Just when I thought things might finally work out for me, for us. It wasn't just you, but my lack of that certain something. I can just say that you never really got to know me enough to find it. But ... you can't force love or other disasters. They just happen. Yes, the overflow of clichees is deliberate. That's often what a relationship consists of. I mean, we all consider different things cliche. I just have my special little pattern, which I tend to follow even though it eventually leads me to a dead end. I'm not sorry for what we had, I'm a bit sad it's over though. Especially when taking into account all those 15 minus 2 c*****s that will now be unused for an indefinite time. I didn't even ... though it was most likely to happen a time not very far from now. That's the way it goes though. I'll have to hope the beast won't mind taking a little nap for a while. I know I will.
I also know I'll miss you for some time, which makes sense. It might not be constant or last long but one can never tell with such things. I guess it's fair to admit that for me you were something special. At least for a while. I just need to find someone else, who can see that I am worth ... well, everything. Just like I would feel about them. Someone who would have the courtesy to apologise and explain face to face. I suppose it WAS better than a post-it but some things are better to hear from the source not through a friend. Friends -- thank you for you. I couldn't do all this otherwise. They'll get pissed drunk with you and listen to your renditions of "I Will Survive", not make comments when you feel bad or worse, and mostly they're just there. So perhaps I'm not so alone after all. Maybe one day even a friend richer from that short but happy little affair one summer.